Part 048 · ~2 min read

Getting depressed…

I spoke to Romano last night, and he told me he had already found a tenant for my room. This was before I was going to say to him that I would have liked to stay a few more months. Shit! I told him that I felt really down this period, and I lied, telling him that I was down because I didn’t treat him properly and bla bla bla. He didn’t seem to care about it, and he told me just one thing that left me wondering: how do you say, wondering… “Be careful; not everything seems as it seems. You must have heard other times. Beauty fades, and inner beauty can be stolen. Be careful what you do and with whom you do it. He is not as nice as he looks, and he uses people as much as they have a drop of blood left. He might be rich and charming, but he is an asshole”. When I asked him who he was referring to, he told me I knew who he was thinking of. I frankly understood, but I did not understand how he thought that I would feel attracted by a man when he knew I was a lesbian. Last night, I had a short conversation with Anneka about this NY thing, and she understood mysituation and why I could not possibly go there. She said that she would not force anything on me and that if I wanted to stay in her apartment while she was away, I could do so. I didn’t even say thank you… I felt like shit! She seemed not to care at all about my jealousy and about me staying behind. I think she is after that bastard. But if this is the case and I realise it, I will let her pay for it dearly. I will take the bastard to bed and try to do it before she does. I am not stupid, and I know that Mario, the son of a bitch, is very much after me.

I fancy doing nothing today, but I have to arrange to do something. I started missing Napoli too much, and I might go there to spend the rest of the month.

Plus, shit! I need to find another apartment because I will not go to stay with Anneka. I decided.