Part 129 · ~1 min read

Why did you do that?

Sonya… Why did you do that? Was I worth your life? I feel like shit! I feel you did it for me, but should I have behaved? I was not the only one in your life. You had the people you helped loving you, and you loved them. Have you thought that they would miss you now?

You have been as selfish as I am! How about your poor father? How could you leave him alone after you were the only daughter who was keeping him alive and giving him a reason to live?

Sonya, Sonya… Why did you do that? Why?

I remember everything that happened between us: the nice and the bad times.

What could I do if I didn’t love you anymore? Why do I feel so guilty, but simultaneously, I am looking for the world to forgive me and blame myself for your act?

My poor baby, my poor girl…

I am devastated! I am sorry if I treated you badly last week. Sonya, you knew it was over, and I could not bear your presence anymore: pestering me, stalking me… Anneka called me today and said you contacted her to ask about Simona and me. How the hell did you possibly know Anneka? I will never know what she told you, but it was not nice. I will get the Swedish bitch, and she will fucking tell me what she told you about me…

I am no saint, but not for this. You had to kill yourself and make me feel so guilty…

My poor girl…

Forgive me! I am so sorry! Sorry!