Part 059 · ~1 min read

Sonya

Yesterday, I was meant to see Simona. Instead, Sonya called me, telling me she wanted to see me and talk about our situation because it was unclear what was happening between us and if there was still something.

We met, and it was really hard to tell that all was over. She asked me if there was another woman, but I told her that it had nothing to do with a third person between us. She believed me and asked whether we wanted to take some time apart before saying goodbye. I accepted even if I really should have told her that it was over.

Anyway, I will see her in October, as we agreed, for her birthday, and we will decide whether to marry or say farewell.

I tried to see Simona, but she was too busy. I tried to meet Flavio, but he was too busy, so I met Anneka instead. I picked her up at work, and we went to a hotel in a seaside resort, Sperlonga. I thought they knew her there, but I was wrong. We had sex… It was great, but I regretted it immediately. I felt guilty towards Simona even if she was not my girlfriend.

Anyway, I don’t even want to mention it. It meant really nothing to me, and it is a one-off. It’s over. It never started.

I’m sorry, Simona. I should probably say sorry to Sonya, but I don’t know why I don’t feel guilty toward her.

I’m too down to continue tonight. I feel I am in love, and my sense of guilt is proof. I should tell Simona clearly about my feelings.