Part 099 · ~2 min read

I am falling into depression…

I was in Florence for the last two days for an interview with a very popular sports brand that is looking for agents to do demos at gyms, shops, and other venues.

They called me on Tuesday evening and asked me to go to the two-day convention in Florence. Of course, I do not believe in these things, but a friend from Bologna told me they asked her about a person who could do the job, and she referred me. So they called me based on my good reputation, and I was told that I would have met someone else, but the job would have been mine unless It Was an Act of God!

I was there and saw that the atmosphere was not very friendly toward me, and even the person who called me looked odd. In his early 30s, he was English, pretty unfit for the job he should do, and rather ignorant of the business we work in.

Cutting short. After days of travel and hotel, I have been rejected for bad references! They called me here in Tuscany for good references and dismissed me for bad ones! Why the hell they called me?

I hate myself and what I am becoming and I find life too much for me, it is becoming hard to get up and find a reason to live.

I have no reasons, none whatsoever… Gay, spinster, isolated from my family, no friends, no proper job, no love, no nothing…

Comments

luigir 12 September 2009 at 11:58

It makes two of us, Simona. I sympathize greatly with you, but unfortunately, I do not have any words of good to make you feel better. I wish you all the best and hope you (we) will come out of this—big kisses and hugs.