We're having dinner tomorrow night. Just the two of us. I'm planning to cook, which is a mistake because I can't cook and it will probably be terrible.
But I want him to know that I appreciate our friendship before he leaves. Even though I'm not great at saying those kinds of things.
Sonya came by this afternoon. She's started showing already. It's strange to see the physical evidence of the fact that my actions have consequences. That there's a person growing inside her that I'm responsible for.
She brought me prenatal vitamins. Said I should start taking them too, for solidarity.
I laughed. I think she was serious.
We're going to look at hospital options next week. She wants me to be present for the birth. Says she wants me to be the first person to see our child.
I keep waiting to feel ready for this. But I think maybe readiness isn't the point. Maybe the point is just showing up and trying not to fuck it up too badly.
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That sounds right, Mario. Just show up. That's already more than you were doing before.
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