Flavio asked if Mario and I wanted to move in with him. Said it would help Mario during this difficult time. Said that the three of us together might create some healing.
I knew it wasn't about healing. I knew it was about orchestration. But I said yes anyway.
Because I wanted to be inside the orchestration. I wanted to be the one controlling things instead of the one being controlled.
Anneka was upset. She said I was putting myself back in danger. That revenge isn't healing, no matter what language you use to describe it.
She was right. But I couldn't stop.
I was addicted to the power of it. To the knowledge that I could manipulate Mario. That I could see through Flavio. That I wasn't the helpless victim anymore.
I was going to be the orchestrator.
Comments
Simona, listen to Anneka. Walk away from this triangle before it eats you alive.
Revenge-as-healing is a cognitive trap. If you feel seen only through control, that's a signal to stop—not to escalate.
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